Bitter Sweet Days

Wow, I can't believe I basically leave for school Tuesday... that's so wild to me!! This whole past week has been weird to me. I started saying good-bye, saw a lot of people for probably the last time for awhile, and have thought constantly about how hard it's going to be to say good-bye to my closest friends and family. Which I say all this and it looks like I'm moving across the country, not an hour away but it's still one of those things.

This past weekend has hit me the hardest. Lindsey, Peyton, and me hung out Friday and Saturday and then Patrick joined us to "camp out" Saturday night. I had a great time, but my thoughts we're constantly "there won't be many days like this anymore." Yea, I'll come home, I'll see them at football games and church, but We won't get to do stuff like that... I tear up as I think about it so I'll stop.

Church was stinking AMAZING today!! Oh My BACK!!! For real talk! Like the songs we sang during worship were Fabulous! Then Bro Cecil's sermon was Awesome!! Totally a slap in the though, He talked about why we beat on closed doors when there is an open door begging us to come inside... boom!! ha. Then I moved up to the college sunday school class, it was AWESOME too!!! Actual discussion instead of crickets!! Then took possibly the best nap ever, that is after hanging with my wonderful Mom and Brother! Jay went into the Youth Group today for the 1st time, I haven't seen him this excited about something in a long time!! I pray he stays like this!! Then tonight we had the Deacons Ordination thing... basically we swore some guy into being a deacon and watched men pray over him for an hour and a half... woo. But the guy being "sworn in"'s name is Luke and he said one thing that stuck out to me. "I am not qualified, but I am willing." Slap in the face!!

Why you ask? Because it was so hard not to go to the youth room today for sunday school. I wanted to go and make sure the 6th graders felt welcome and talk to everyone, get things going. But I'm not qualified for that anymore. That's not my job. God really gave me a peace about that today. I can't do it anymore, someone else has got to step up and I have no doubt they will, I'm just a control freak. So I like to do things. Now is my time to go and dig into the College Ministry, no I'm not qualified(I don't have a degree or even Senority) but I am willing and I pray God use me to grow the ministry and even in Troy.

And then tonight also brought up this saying I heard at SLA. We got these REAP journals to use during our quite time and I did some of mine tonight during the 50 prayers. Well the preacher guy from week 2 of SLA said this. "Whenever I interview someone for a church position this is one of my questions, 'When was the last time you cried because of what your Saviour did for you?'" I thought of this because as Luke talked he cried. It is so inspiring to me to watch a grown man cry because of what his God has done for him!! He is broken under the wing of Jesus and allowing himself to remain broken which is so cool to me!!

Well My summer is slowly closing. I go up for Rush Tuesday, so my life from Tuesday-Saturday will be non-stop. Then I move in and start college... WOAH!!! Here is my schedule as promised:

Monday:

1:00-1:50 Comp and Modern English

4:00-4:50 University Orientation

6:00-8:30 Pre-Cal with Algrebra

Tuesday:

8:30-9:45 Intro to Leadership

10:00-11:15 Honors Western Civ

5:30-8:00 General Psychology

Wednesday:

1:00-1:50 Comp and Modern English

Thursday:

8:30-9:45 Intro to Leadership

10:00-11:15 Honors Western Civ

Friday:

1:00-1:50 Comp and Modern English

Well that's all for now. My next post will be from my apartment when I'm all moved in!! WOOT!!!!

Much Love!!

--The RUSHing girl!!!