SO I went to my first college Frat party last night. It was just a big back-to-school bash held between all the fraternity's. All in All it was the first weekend of many hangovers to come(not for me, for the other idiots in the world). Like it was fun, but the fact that I wasn't drinking or smoking, and don't cuss made it boring. And I didn't know anyone so it was kind of like me following Kellie around... which apparently she thought she was my baby-sitter. ha! I love her to death, and am SO thankful she's chosen to be help me out like she's been doing. It just cracked me up the WHOLE night. "Where's Jenna? Where'd she go?" ha! Poor Katy Kitto. I'm glad she was there last night! She was one of those people that wasn't drinking, well she limited herself to one cup since she was driving, so we had fun together. And this chick named Lindsey, she was pretty cool to!
It just cracks me up though how some people are. Like sober they try to watch what they say. Like they say references to cuss words or the first letter to them, but then they get drunk and its all over. And then they look at me and say you didn't hear that or tonight didn't happen. It's so stupid. I'm just saying, if you get drunk in front of me, I will pick, aggravate, and annoy you just as bad as you are annoying me. That fact did somewhat make my night more fun last night.
But like the main thing that has been on my mind, why I went to sleep at 4 and am up already at 8. Grr... is that what does a person like me do in a situation like this? I talked to one of my amazing mentors back home who so lovingly text me back at 3 in the morning about this, but as a Christian and a sober person do you offer to be the designated driver? Or is that encouraging your friends to drink? Or do you tell them that your not gonna drive their sorry butts home so deal with it i hopes that they wouldn't go to crazy? It's basically a lose lose situation. My friend said to be their driver. It's better that they get home safe because their gonna drink anyways, which is so true... lucky me.
And then last night made me realize why one of the guys in my class started drinking prom night.... because it was SOOOOOO BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like several times last night I thought about just getting one drink to entertain myself but if I got one then it'd be all over with. Why? because I know myself. And I thought back to that night and figured that's probably how he felt, and then I wish I would have taken that guitar away sooner!! (that is a whole different story so don't worry about it)
AND THEN all this led to me thinking about why I don't drink. One I like life, Two I'm under age, Three I guess the most serious one is I've watched someone suffer for a year. Slowly dying and it stunk. It was hard on me, and my family because my Papa was the strongest person to us. And no, he didn't get sick because of drinking or smoking, but people who party get sick just like that, they develop cancer, liver problems, issues that will slowly kill them when they get older if not while they're in their twenties. I don't want my family to have to suffer and watch me die. And I also want to be that person kids can look up to who hasn't fallen into this temptation.
Which sparks my next things. I have a person in my life who has never smoke, drank, nothing. And She is such an inspiration to me. Like I want to be that to someone. I want my youth group back home to see me as not the 4 out of 5(or whatever that statistic is) who go to college and never enter church again. I want to be there one that they are like "She did it. She didn't conform. She was her on person."
And I guess I'm really scared to death of one thing when I looked out over the people last night. I'm scared that some of my friends back home will start to do this stuff. Like, hope this doesn't offend anyone, but some of my best friends are sophomores in high school. And yea, most of their class has already gotten into that stuff and they haven't, but it still freaks me out to think they're right there. I mean the toughest years have yet to come. Right now I'm not that worried, but once they start driving I'll probably never sleep again. And I think that's just my protective side taking over.
Ok. I don't think I have anything else to say. Maybe I'll be able to get some sleep now.
--The Sober One
Jenna girl, stay strong and keep standing for what you believe! You are such an encouragement to me!
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